It is not easy to surrender. In our society, those who surrender are sometimes viewed as weak. Could it really be more though? Just like the next person, I enjoy when I am in control of my plans and sprinting toward my goals. There really is no need for me to pause and reflect if this is what is best,… View Post
It is quiet now. The world is distant. Life is different. I can hear sounds forgotten from long ago and I bask in the surrender of peace. Like the surf in the ocean, thoughts swirl through my mind. Pain and triumph pushed down now bubbles to the surface demanding air. A moment to grieve, a moment relieved, a moment to… View Post
I do not know if it is my first born birth order or my Type A personality; regardless I flourish when I have a plan set in place. I know what needs to be done, I can organize for efficiency, and I like to set up little systems to maximize my time because there is a good chance something similar… View Post
Unintentionally, words slip out without realizing their impact. I wince. A battle rages on. The enemy’s sword connects to my heart and I am pierced. Bruised and battered, but not defeated. For a woman who is childless spending over a decade going through infertility appointments, hearing “Happy Mother’s Day” stirs up countless emotions. Feelings that I carefully keep from the… View Post
In an unassuming night, my phone rang and put my happy little world upside down. My mind tried to understand words in the phone that oppose the rational as my throat clenched and heart streaks pain. Screaming inside with not a sound coming out, I hold onto the words “he didn’t make it…” with baited breathe. In the quiet of pre-dawn, rest seeps into… View Post