Where would any of us be without our Mother’s? They give us our name, our path, and so so much more. I love my mother and mother-in-law devoutly. They are some of my biggest life champions and encourage me in my endeavors. Then there is another group of mothers’ that I have a heart for; the unspoken ones who are a mother at heart and bare no children of their own.
These women I pray for and my heart breaks over. The aunt, the friend, the sister; the woman who has a heart for her very own child that she does not have to share. Her heart is the one I desperately want to hug today. The children in her life that God has sent, she would never want life without them. But she also deeply desires a life with a child where she is their only.
This woman relishes motherhood, but on today finds herself withdrawn from the day because of a heartache only she knows. It is a lonely pain I know to well and even though I am now called “mom”, this pain still tings at my heartstrings. There are battles fought in this woman’s life she may not share, rather she takes on the scars gratefully because there is a healing in the process of her child pursuit.
Infertility journeyed me through deep valleys, but I also trekked upon some amazing mountain top views. I am not healed from infertility, I remain barren. However, I experienced God and His infinite goodness and, in those encounters, there was a birth to a healing in my heart.
I know my story may not be your own, but perhaps the undercurrent of the pain you can relate to. Friend, can I encourage you today as you put on your brave face and reply to the text messages and calls that stab at your heart? Each tear you are shedding, God is collecting. He has His arms open wide for you to fall into and find refuge from the heartbreak. He hears your pleas and wants to still your racing heart as you remain in the wait of the season.
Today may be brutal, I wish I could pen words to ease your pain. Sadly, there are no words- however there is an opportunity to encounter God where you are at and He will take you through an amazing journey of your own. His presence offers you to take a step today in faith and hold tight to a hope for tomorrow that this is not the end of the story He is writing for you. This is just a juncture where you surrender your heart to Him, and He renews you in His perfect love.
In His perfect love, God designed us in His own likeness. Your longing consequently echo’s His own longing. Where He is your only and He is delighted in by you, His beloved child. What seems like your undoing, may be the rebuilding of what a Mother’s heart is designed for; To love.
So I hope you know you are not alone today. I implore you to hold fast to His love because His love always wins. I know you may fear what His answer may be, but I promise you it will be the right answer for you. Even if the answer is “no”. It will hurt to hear and hurts even more to live out. But on the other side of that “no” there is a “yes” to a life you may not have considered. His plans for you will bless you beyond measure and even on days when tears slip down your cheek, you have a covering of His love. He will continue to heal, comfort and provide you with His peace. His promises remain true yesterday as they do for today for you to live an abundant life through Him. In His arms is like no other, just as He designed a mother-child bond to be.
You precious mom at heart are SO loved and have a heart to commend!
Marsha Baker says
How beautiful and heartfelt! No doubt your loving words touched the heart and soul of some dear women. God bless you in your journey.