“I can’t do this anymore.” My pleaded whispered said through tears of exhaustion.
“I know…” replied my Heavenly Father as I felt His embrace around my tired soul. “and you do not have to.”
For so long I have been working on my performance. As a daughter, a friend, a wife, a sister, a volunteer, an employee, and now a business owner and writer. It’s just been debilitating me. My body and mind are beyond exhausted and my soul thirsts for deliverance from this dry hole I have dug myself in.
That’s where Jesus put His arm around my shoulder and told me it’s going to be ok. He taught me that just because I can do something, doesn’t mean that He wants me to do it. Patiently He has been healing my fragile heart to see Him as love and my life is not about what I can do, but what He can do through me. He has gently pursued me to trust Him more and when I do, what He wants accomplished gets done.
What a relief for this distressed girl. Though there are still days when my nerves can get the best of me, I seek my Father for rest now. His spirit provides me with His perfect peace and I enter into a presence that knows no darkness. He has overcome my obstacles already and if I allow less of me and more of Him, I am sustained for the tasks at hand. His provisions for each day restore me. Slowly I feel myself walking boldly with a new humility.
He has given me a new name; daughter of the King of Kings.
Just as I am. Underserving, yet still claimed and delighted in as a beloved daughter as He pours His love over and over and over me.
“Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once more. I will praise you with the harp for your faithfulness, my God, I will sing praise to you with the lyre, Holy One of Israel. My lips will shout for joy when I sing praise to you – I whom you have delivered.” Psalms 71:20-23 NIV
I am blessed to have met you and to get to know you more through your writing. I loved your expression of how we are sustained for any task, when we allow less of ourselves and more of Jesus to be present in the situation. Thanks for sharing your heart with us. Great message Jennifer!